Lesbians are nothing. Lesbians don’t exist. This is what I learned, over and over, overtly, explicitly, and then in far more clever ways; first, being inculcated into compulsory heterosexuality, and later, in disguise, from genderists and other “radical” queers. I was eight or nine and I already knew my feelings were “wrong.” I knew when […]

When I was a clearly mentally ill teenager, I bullied my therapist into writing me a letter so I could get T. Other detransitioners I know bullied actual medical doctors into giving them T. Apparently from the provider side this is a terribly common phenomenon—that people will just demand T and threaten to go elsewhere […]

My uterus tried to kill me today, or at least that’s how it felt. First I just noticed a sensation that I have (embarrassingly recently) come to learn means, “Go check whether you’re bleeding.” This learning has been a long time coming. I’ve never been regular. I’m certain my time on T didn’t help, but […]

On “Transgender” Children by Pogoniptrail This is a fascinating perspective on “gender confusion” from a child therapist.

Here are some blogs by other women who have transitioned and subsequently stopped trying to pass as male. Each of them are important to me. Below are a sample of good posts to begin with, but in each case, the entire blog is a very worthwhile read. 23XX http://twentythreetimes.tumblr.com/post/53375349806/staring-backCrash Chaos Cats http://crashchaoscats.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/socialized-trans/ Atlas Strawberries http://atlasstrawberries.tumblr.com/about […]

My unpopular perspective is that the adoption of trans identity is frequently a trauma response. Some of the first cracks of daylight that could pierce my former ideology came from Carolyn Gage’s article on how the reality of sexual abuse can complicate FTM trans narratives (“The Inconvenient Truth about Teena Brandon,” Trivia, Issue 10, February […]

http://www.jofreeman.com/joreen/tyranny.htm I’m currently reading this on the recommendation of a brilliant new friend who suggested that I might find analysis here that critiques parallel phenomena to the current situation in pomo-land, whereby magical thinking rules the day, everything means everything we say it means and is how we say it is, because we say so, […]